Photos&Memories.

just spent ages looking through loads of old pictures and realising how much fun i had in each one, looking at this picture makes me remember that conversation; the people we go through life with mean a lot to us, and i am glad pictures exist, so memories can last for longer than they may have done otherwise. for example, i have this really photo of me and these girls i went to primary and secondary school who lived in my village, we're on the school bus and we're just laughing, we had more than likely just had a go at this kid on the bus called Ollie, that was frequent!!

im grateful for the friends and family i have the ones i care the most about, the people who i cherish our memories together. the people i met at school helped shape who i am now, maybe not who i will always be but for now who i am.

Memories pressed between the pages of my mind, Memories sweetened through the ages just like wine. ElvisPresley.

people who i may have met briefly or those who i grew up with, they all mean a lot to me. people that will appear frequently on here are Emily and Abi. a year ago everything would have been emily and anna, but just with growing up we drifted and i dont really class anna as one of my best friends anymore which is a shame; as when i was with her and emily i was at my best, i wish i could say me and emily were still bestest friends, but im afraid its too late to make a difference.. and i know it hurts emily to see me and abi, as whenever im with abi im always having a laugh and enjoying myself. every friendship is different and i completely realise this, i dont expect me and abi to be like me and emily, god only knows they couldnt be more different; but when me and emily were bestest friends it was always sunshine and laughter. we'd fall out over silly stuff then make up again as girls do, we'd have childish arguments but then it got to a time where pretty much every few weeks we would fall out and stay fallen out for quite a long time. me and emily have been in the same tutor group for 5 years. i only really started talking to her in year 9/10/11.

" They say there's three versions of this story mine and yours and then the truth, and we can put down to circumstance, our childhood , then our youth."   Robbie Williams&Gary Barlow.

ive always this group of friends, i wouldnt have necessarily called any of them close friends in the beginning; perhaps rachael but that was about it, abi was part if this group, i'd always known her.. we shared our first lesson of secondary school together, we'd always gotten on well; chatted in lessons etc etc and then as me emily and anna were falling out more often (year 10/11) i became more and more a part of this second group, i had phases all through secondary school where for no apparent reason i'd just hang out with this gang more often that not. i liked the people. i always had fun with them. there was always banter within the group, once alex and ashley had a fight everyone thought it was scandalous.

emily has depression, this meant she has confidence issues. she doesnt like big crowds or lots of people... it meant she spent less and less time with me.. i felt like i had done something wrong, emily didnt want to talk to me about her problems because she though i was weighed down by too many of my own. she should have said something... i missed her and so i thought i needed to find new people to hang out with. the group i spoke about earlier? i already knew them pretty well so i thought i'd go to them. the ratios changed. i spent less time with emily and more time with this group, no hard feelings to emily but i didnt want to spend all lunches inside Mrs Harvey's office, i wanted me her and anna to go back to our spot by the fence and while away the time looking at buses and old people, the blue sky and clouds. to begin with i felt like an outsider but as time went on i forged strong friendships with a lot of the group, they laughed at my jokes, would listen to me and spend time with me; im not saying that emily and anna didn't i just think it felt better in a bigger group. there were little pairs and groups within this group, chloe and millie, grace and jo.. the boys all stuck together too. but there were a few people that didnt have best friends in the group, abi was one of them.

There is no other who can take your place, i feel happy inside when i see your face, i hope you believe me, because i speak sincerely and i mean it when i tell you that i need you,
your my best friend. Weezer.

we often as a group would go out to rollerworld, me and abi had gradually been getting closer and it was on one of these such outings to rollerworld that i asked abi if she then wanted to come for a sleepover.. she said she didnt know and she would get back to me, she now says to begin with she didnt know if she did and then just thought 'screw it this girl seems pretty cool i'll do it.' and i think this was when we really hit it off. from then on they say the rest is history..

admittedly its a similar story for me and emily, one day long long ago her friends sophie and colette (who at the time really didnt like me) weren't at school so emily decided to hang around with me, we were outside of the science block and she said to me " do you know what your actually alright" i just laughed and said 'thanks very much, your not to bad yourself' and again the rest they say is history..

me and emily went through a lot together and im grateful for all the help she gave me. ever so. hopefully me and abi will never have to go through something as heart-breakingly painful as what me and emily did, and im quite glad of what me and emily went through and well we came out the other side. it made us stringer.. we could manage to laugh about the little things more, we were more greatful for things, didnt take people for granted.
on the day of my mums funeral it wasnt the thought of saying goodbye to my mum that made me cry first... it was seeing emily cry. there aren't many people that when i see them cry it makes me cry; but emily is one of the 'lucky' few.

ive written a full blown essay now and so should probably close up but i just want Emily to know how much she means to me.
shes irreplaceable.
irremplacables de votre mon meilleur ami. <3 


ps google translater required. <3