So what your a different kind of boy, who told you that was bad thing? The screwed up shitty society we live in? Those idiots in the corridor at school?
So what if the hero in the fairy tales has never ended up being a dancer, doesn't mean it couldn't happen, make your own fairy tale.
Dreams can come true and boy, if you try I know you
Human beings are insane creatures, we have dodgy wiring, blow fuses and trip switches like we ARE electricity, if we're lucky enough, we'll find someone with who sparks fly.
In my head there is a simple way of how the world should be, there are too many people who are racist, homophobic, judgemental, rude, ignorant and so fast to judge they couldn't even imagine what it must be like to be a teenager with more shit on the plate than most people have in a lifetime.
Sometimes I read stuff people write, I think to myself oh how I yearn to rescue you, to save you, to help you out of that dark place, but I know and I understand why you write, so I let you. People say (me included) 'A problem shared is a problem halved' sometimes this works, other times, it doesn't. Simple.
Everything I have done in my 18 and some year life seemed like a good idea at the time. So I've had more than one best friend, I've met more people than I remember, I've danced with boys I don't know, I've drunk stuff that tastes like mouthwash because boys can't decide who's going to start the bottle, but so far, I've enjoyed a lot of it when I think about it. My confidence didn't exist when I moved to France, move on a couple of years and here I am. I've lost weight (unintentionally), I've made new friends (intentionally), I am happier in my own skin. I'm not perfect, and I doubt I ever will be, nobody is. I have learnt so much, that's all life is, one great big learning curve, one thing I have learnt for definite is that if people care, they make time for you, and if you care as much as you say you do, you make time for them. Life isn't simple, it isn't easy, but somebody once said its worth it.
Make your life count, love yourself, love others, have faith in yourself, have faith in others, (some good people do still exist) keep your chin up, you may not feel it, but your amazing.
Your you.
Not that mould people think is "right".
Not a number.
Not a size.
Not statistic on a piece of paper.
But a human being.
One who is far more amazing than you will ever understand, far more inspiring than you shall ever know, more important than some people realise, and more incredible than people will ever give you credit for.
Your breath is not wasted, your skin, flesh and bones are not wasted, your tears, your laughter, your sadness, your joy, are not wasted. Your words traverse the seas, your emotion climbs mountains, crosses rivers, ravines, woodland, wilderness. You destroy fear, dispel worry, bring happiness, laughter and a sense of being wanted.
Your you.
My saucisson.
My Pussy Galore fan.
My Chicken Royal Date.
My boy I will meet again.
Ninakupenda <3
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