Life.

So I haven't written a post in ages and I don't even know why.
Life's pretty tricky at the moment, I mean its so good, yet so messed up all at once.
My new bedroom is finished, which I'm really happy about, I love it. College is going okay, even if there are a few girls in my class who really really annoy me and at times upset me. I'm doing a catering course which I really like doing.
My brother got kicked out from my other uncle's, and its as if everyone's given up on him, which I hate. He's living with a friend of the family.
Had a really bad few weeks since I last came back form England/Scotland, unsure as to why but just been feeling really down and, missing mum a lot. My sister has helped cheer me up though, strange how out of something so terrible, my sister and I became really close...
A-R hasn't been very happy with me, we've had soooo many arguments since I got back from Angleterre, but we had a "chat" today so I'm going to try and make things better, and she is too. I think each time I get angry or sad or happy or anything really I should write about it on here, I mean when I started this blog I imagined it would be like an on-line diary, that everyone could see, and I haven't fulfilled that. I can't just keep off loading onto Lewis...
Serious Underground Dance Vibes is the song of my life at the moment, it calms me down sooooo much. To be fair Holy Pacific [even though that's not their real name ash gets it. ;)] are the best.
I'm so unsure on what I want to do with my life, I know I like cooking, but do I want it as a profession?
I know I want to help people, I loove the idea of becoming a paramedic, the idea of working longs hours, getting myself really stuck into a job, not having Christmas or Easter holidays every year really appeals to me, to be so focused on something, to save peoples lives, to affect so many people on an everyday basis, to get through the bad stuff by knowing there's so much other good stuff in life, to know that however shitty my days been, I always have tomorrow, and when tomorrow doesn't come, knowing that I did my best.
I need to do some art, I've been missing it. I need something to focus on, something I'm good at, something I can get lost in that's not English revision.
It's my cousin Charlotte's wedding in just over a week, and while I'm bummed I won't be able to see any of my friends, its taken over by the fact I get to see all my family who some of them I haven't seen in more than two years, mad. I am especially excited to see meggy moo, I miss her soo so much.
I gotta go and get some dinner.. till the next time...
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